Raining Troubles Away

Rain bursts from 

The summer time sky

Caught unaware we are

Sent into hysterical laughter

Like devilish kids up to

Silly, reckless nonsense

The noise of thunder

Cannot scare us

But invites a daily doze of

Welcomed excitement

Into our lives

Your blissful childish squeals 

Chase off our troubles
Sending them

Mixing and swirling with

Newly turned garden soil
And leaves cast from the tree washing together as they sweep Down a path 

Forced by the rain
 
 Hitting the kerb oversized raindrops

Bounce and splatter into

The gutter where they

Meet a timely end

  Down the greedy gurgling drain

We Met For The Last Time

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 Who the hell are you !

And the sensation of

Fear tingles up my spine

Flashing back to when we

last met !

I swallow my voice

Deep within a desperate

Gulp of air contaminated

By the scent of your presence

Flicker at Fight or flight

But I haven't got time

I find sanctuary by

Sliding inside my mind

As I lock you out behind

The thorny gate I see your

Filthy bloody fingers

Probing through

Hidden watching from

Far as you engulf my body

Crushing and constricting as

You entwine yourself around me

I step further back as the pain

threatens its way in

Focusing on your screaming lips

But unable to hear what is

So violently vomiting out of you

I reside myself to ride the

the waves of your anger

Praying that the storm will

calm and I shall return to me

Safely without too much damage

Dead Rainbows

Rainbow girl in all her glory

Head high lost in a dizzy sky

Donating bags of precious trust 

Oblivious careless child 

 Skirting the dust of deceit

Curiosity lead her astray

Straight to the Storm Spreader

Trapped little bird

Caged within his grip

 Black clouds eclipsed the day

Spears of light spat and

Scorched at her skin

As she ran bleeding

Footprints on the grass

Cursed and grounded now

Eyes torn open wide to see

Devastation grew from her seed

To be planted forever in her path

 

Dead rainbows have no colour

  

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Blind Abuse

Notice him
Stolen and lost from life
He's sat within himself
A nameless being in search
Of an identity

Ordered when to move
And gagged from speech
Left alone and dreading the
Time he is abused

Comforted only by
His thoughts of revenge
But too young to act
He recoils in fear as
Memories flash back

His only way out
To release his voice
From behind the gag
Or hide himself
Deep inside his
Wounded soul.

Golden Silence

Winter nights and huddling closer
Xmas tree and twinkling tinsel
Dangling baubles red and bold
Tasty countdown advent treats
consumed as comfort to sooth
Your twisting aching belly

Beneath the tree lies the secret 
Shiny gifts yet to be told
Special attention paid and due
He wraps your gift with precision
Sheets of shimmering star like paper
Sticky tape licked from his hungry fingers
Tagged with a note and a Xmas quote


The promised time arrives
Exchanging gifts in golden silence
Silver lined and holding safe
The poisonous secret


Trembling with excitement within his groin
As he waits to claim his dirty gift
Chosen by his lust for domination 
Not given with will but
Greedily snatched from
Your Innocent hands

 



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Where Was I

In my mind I see you there, crying by your bed
I see him screaming down at you
How could he curse you for being born
I'm trying hard to reach out to you but I am not there
We are in two different places and we cannot meet
My nightmares are of never being able to reach you
I feel as though I have left you there back in time
Has he taken you from me forever
Tell me where was I when you needed me?

I should step into that time to save you
I shall wrap myself around you
He will not hurt you again, I will not let him
I will bring you out untouched like it should be

You will have a safe and happy childhood

And I am hear when you need me.

If only I could make this happen for you
I want to take away your pain
Erase the damage he has done
Those memories should not be inside your head
And I would be there when you needed me



Please don't hurt this child anymore
Are we strong enough to fight this
I cannot bear the pain inside you
Can we find the strength together
And we can be together when you need me.

Waiting

Crime reported, waiting, waiting. Everything has come to a standstill. Life and time have paused, where are we? waiting. Days pass, weeks pass, months pass, waiting, waiting, waiting. Feeling numb after so many emotions, panic every time the phone rings, waiting for dates, having to tell the children, waiting, waiting, where are we, still, very still. Where are we, not back there at least, I know we are still not going forward. Years pass still waiting, why are we waiting? Sometimes I think I'm dying from the inside out. Why are we waiting so very long?, we want to move forward on the train to recovery, why are we waiting?, how long does it take?, who cares? Waiting, do we even matter? And him, still out there, waiting. Why are we waiting because of  him. Justice is cruel to victims, victims we don't want to be, let us move on to the next station and begin the journey to heal.

I Wish You Could Love Yourself

I wish you could love yourself the way I do, instead you abuse yourself , a stab, scolding water, I am so horrified, you don't want or have the energy to wash or even comb your hair. Can I trust you not to drink again? when you drink you cannot cope with what goes on in your head. Drinking leads to substance abuse which fills you up in anger, how could you put that stuff inside you? I don't care what people think anymore when you are by my side but I care what they think of you, when did you last brush your teeth? Your breath could kill a dog. Why can't you look after yourself? look at the length of your nails, please come cut them. Wash your hands, come on I hate to nag, get to bed its 6am, get out of bed its 6pm. Change your clothes, come out of that room my god it smells, stop saying you don't care and look at the length of your nails! Please are you gonna wash today? What will you do today, what nothing, nothing at all, well just another day, back to your room then. aren't you bored. I wish you could love yourself the way I do.

WORDS OF FEAR

Words we don't say, dare not say, words strong enough to break the silence of any room, words so powerful, so frightening and so terrifying they will turn your reality into a living nightmare. We are so alarmed by these words that every measure possible is taken to evade them. These words can even cause deafness and in some cases blind you. When they are spoken you step into another world, a world that you cannot easily step back out of and even if your lucky enough to escape you won't come out whole. I heard these words and was thrown into this world. THE WORLD OF REALITY and the words that can cause so much devastation CHILD ABUSE!

                                      CHILD ABUSE

THE UNSEEN CHILD

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The unseen child sees but is not noticed

The unseen child speaks but you cannot hear 

The unseen child is frightened but doesn't show it

The unseen child hides to cry and you cannot know it

The unseen child suffers but you cannot feel it

 The unseen child is lost but only in silence

In Recognition of my children and all children of abuse
 

Torn Open

My eyes were torn open to Child Abuse, I couldn't describe it any other way, my eyes are never going to mend, the damage is too bad, I will never see the way I used to see, now I see what I don't want to see, sometimes I close my eyes and hide and sometimes I force myself to see what I don't want to see. I see.

Monster Under Your Bed

When did you become a monster....... Were you a monster when we met..........Did you live under my baby's bed.........My baby swallowed a monster.....My baby swallowed a monster...............I need to get it out................My baby swallowed a monster.............Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeese......I need to get it OUT