Trust

I have been very thoughtful today, I realized how afraid I am when it comes to trust. I have always been over sensitive, when I hurt I really hurt. After being too trusting, too gullible I am just so very afraid. We give our trust blindly and don't realise it until it's too late. How on earth do you get it back. Will I be able to trust again, life is lonely keeping everyone at arms length. Perhaps I will die a lonely old lady. I imagine myself sitting in an armchair in a dark and dusty room. A cat and some old books for company. Guilt will be my friend and not because I want it as a friend but because we are stuck with each other. An unwelcomed guest that I invited in because I once trusted. Sad.

Words Of Ignorance

Why is it when you are trying to walk forward, somebody comes along and forces you further back than what you were in the first place. You'd think after everything my family have been through we wouldn't hurt so easily, but words through ignorance are the most painful and they I'm afraid to say are the ones that hurt the most. I am stuck in the skin of who I am, not much in the way of confidence, angry, sad, sometimes stupid and of course after all this a little or perhaps a lot mad but god forgive that I should hurt through words of ignorance.