Mental Murder

One of those nights where I want to sleep but I cannot. I remember a story recently in the news, the story of Milly Dowler who went missing 9 years ago and died at the hands of Levi Bellfield. What keeps going round in my head is her parents remarks after the trail. Giving evidence as witnesses was too high a price to pay! I will come back to this case later.

 A question that I would like answered is why nobody in child abuse cases considers the mental murder of a child. The trauma to a child with this crime is never really mentioned or when it is, never in detail or given much thought or recognition. It is merely directed away from our attention the same way you would stop a child viewing violence on the television. We are not children so why is this not given its precedence.

A child is not an adult mentally or physically and where the body heals the mind never does. To commit such a crime to a child will mean that child as it existed no longer exists. The child's childhood ceases. It is a crime that goes without punishment or proper consideration because again I say we cannot admit that some of our kind can commit such a premeditated act of inhumanity. It is never truly examined by us or given any sense of explanation because it is not carried on the outside of the body but on the inside, unseen and unheard much like the crime itself.

Coming back to the Milly Dowler Case, there is far too much redirection in court cases where upon the victim is the one who is somewhat at fault and has in someway encouraged the crime itself. In the case of Milly Dowler the defence apparently placed the blame onto her parents by attacking their reputations.This form of defence is acceptable in our justice system. A family who had their much loved daughter abducted, abused and murdered. Persuaded as witnesses went into the trail of their daughter's abuser and murderer and whilst on the stand had the blame somehow directed onto them in an unbelievable attempt to excuse this mans crime. Has the world gone mad!!!!! 

Seemingly not according to the Law. It is OK to do this to enable a fair trail for the Child Abusing Murderer! Fact is the truth is all too ugly for us so we have to find an excuse for it somewhere and as the Dowler family were on the stand and not poor Milly ( who would of been blamed) it was her parents who were left totally humiliated and distraught. The saddest thing of all is the Dowler family have said that if they knew how they were going to be treated they would never of taken the stand so what message has the Justice System sent out to other victims! 

As a human being and with common sense my heart goes out to the Dowler family and their lovely Milly.

For me personally I fear for my children.

Ignited

My tongue lies bitten 

Between my teeth

Snared against its will

Restricted words 

Not spoken  

                                              

It ignites the flame

Breeding life to anger  

Consuming and fueling 

It ravishes from within

Winning the battle for 

Control without justice

Prescribed a pill

Green little bullet

Causing the monster to

Return to its cave

To sit in submission

For now

Dear Justice System

STILL WAITING !

WHY?

SORRY NO JUSTICE TODAY

Justice sorry no such thing, why, because the people in charge, the government who make our laws are detached from the reality of child abuse. They come from a world in which the only way pain is inflicted upon them is through money. Money talks and loudly, they would pay to keep a Bank Robber in jail but not a Paedophile. Theft of money hurts them more than the effects of people who rape and abuse children. To them its something that they have no empathy with, they too are abusers, abusers of power who do not and can not empathize with the pain, trauma and psychological effects of such an act on a child never mind an adult. They choose not to see, they choose to believe an abuser is sorry, give them bail, light sentences that in no way reflects the crime. Reality check, it only serves to encourage these vile crimes. They house them within our communities with our children. They have their opportunities to re offend handed to them on a plate. We accept this, we have not been able to find an alternative to deal with child abusers because we choose to ignore what is happening right under our noses. Is there an answer or a solution, my belief is there is an answer for everything, we may not know it yet but if we all opened our eyes and ears together we could find one.

Screwed Over

My children suffer from PTSD, DID, life is hard and we are unable to move on. Attendance is not always easy when it comes to school or college or anything else for that matter. Today one of them lost a college placement and it has been given to someone else due to poor attendance over the last term. Yes no matter what you suffer with if you have poor attendance they can do it, there is always a way around the Disability Discrimination Act. I know if it wasn't for the ups and downs of waiting for this court case this would not have happened, the stress along with the disabilities is all too much  for them. Their suffering goes on and there is nothing I can do about it. Be proud of our Justice System, who is being punished here? Devastated and as my child did not so politely put it "Once again I have been screwed over."

A Mask Of Justice

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I am mulling over a conversation I had the other day with a survivor on Facebook. We discussed our situations and the need for alter egos whilst using Twitter. I joked that we were like Super Heroes hiding behind our masks but in reality its not funny at all. We shouldn't have to hide behind anything. We are not the Abusers yet we are the ones forced into hiding our identity in order to protect and safeguard ourselves and those who we love. I cannot for the life of me understand how people stand for the way in which the Justice System treats the ones who need protecting the most. I neither understand how the vast majority can carry on in life accepting this without question.

I do wonder over the years has the system been corrupted to suit the Abusers, there are those who would argue that every one is entitled to a fair chance to prove their innocence but the Abusers are being given more than a fair chance in the way that they abuse the system.We are empowering them by giving them Bail and expecting them to follow our rules. So many times we hear about Abusers committing offenses whilst out on bail, really is this fair.

After all is said and done what fairness was given to the children or victims that they so violently abused. Do they give them a moment of thought whilst they carry out these vile acts, no. If they are found guilty the sentence is minimum. Why is it that Scotland has the Lowest Convictions in these crimes, its because Victims see no sense in reporting the crime to a system that not only Bullies but cannot give Justice. We are no longer living in the Dark Ages it is the Year 2011.

Justice, A Mission

I wish I was able to share this story with you, to release it from my chest where it lies, every now and then I have to swallow it back down as it tries to force an escape, sometimes when I'm talking I think I'm going to vomit it up on the spot but I am on the road to Justice, a mission my children are taking me on, I am petrified they will not suceed in their mission for justice as I have little faith in the system, I don't want them to fail, thats not an option for them. I'm on the road to justice and its not mine to step off. their mission to cage a monster so it can't ever hurt another child. In time when we come to the end of the road I will be able to share with you and to tell you about my amazing children whom I am totally in awe of.

Hello

Hello,

I have been on Twitter, I suppose because it has given me somewhere to escape to and to express myself. Maybe it could be called my time out............. I feel there are just so many thoughts going round in my head almost as if I'm on the fast spin cycle of a washing machine. Using Twitter has helped me to release a little but I feel it's time to take it further and I hope you will join me, I look forward to your company and to share with you in the hope of making a difference to the way victims of child abuse are treated in todays justice system in the UK..............