EYES OPEN !

Medicine

I don't see myself as a rock, maybe a large pebble. It is not easy to stay strong and keep fighting. If I am a rock then my children are as much a rock to me. We support each other. Today I went to speak to someone, to let go and release some stress. Just having that little outlet has done me the world of good. Talking is the best medicine for the troubled mind so people keep talking.

Unspoken Message

I suppose there are many different views on why you self harm, some are more easily understood than others. The more ignorant can view it as attention seeking. Yes I'm afraid I did hear someone recently say that. A friend had slashed her wrists and  her CPN  (community mental health nurse) said it. I am not really sure myself but I can of course form my own opinions in order to try and understand it. Firstly it could be a cry for help, though I am not sure if I'm correct because my kids have done it where I can't see it. (to put it politely). So it is highly unlikely they would get any attention from that. Then I think there is anger and so much anger from being a victim of abuse that perhaps because they cannot project their anger onto the abuser they eventually turn on themselves. Punishing themselves or believing it's their fault? I myself have only once self harmed. It was shortly after my child's disclosure, I was emotionally in so much pain and so frustrated that I took a Stanley knife to my arm. The pain of it was a release, or maybe even a distraction from these emotions. I cannot explain it any other way. The only thing I do know is no one self harms for nothing, it is an unspoken message with many meanings but one answer. Help.

Message

My child cries because someone has hurt my child through ignorance. Instead of reaching out to my child when my child needed it most, the person has ran further and further away. This is for you my child, remember I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU,I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, YES I LOVE YOU !

The Kiss Of Kindness

If a child or a teenager or an adult discloses child abuse to you, the kindest thing you can do for them is to Believe them, give them The Kiss Of Kindness.

UK It's Not OK

Its not OK, its not OK to rape children, its not OK to look away, its not OK to make them wait on you, its not OK for them to wait to have their say, it's not OK defence needs more time, it's not OK, it's not OK to tell them that's the way it is, it's not OK when the Justice System becomes the Abuser, it's not OK, it's shame on the UK.

I Am Mother

I am mother, to my children's abuser FEAR ME, I am filled with unimaginable HATE, uncontrolable ANGER, I am mother. To my children, the sight of you takes my FEAR away, a simple touch fills me with LOVE, to feel you happy is when I'm CALM.
I am mother.

 I am Mother