Empower

Pick up a pen and write what you feel

If your preference is paint then express

With colour and bare your emotions

Pay no attention to those doubting thought

A toddlers scribble can be as valuable

As an old master's painting

We all have something to share and each of us

Has the power to enlighten

You have earnt the right by

Stepping in the footsteps of life

Remember communication is all that matters

Perfection is silent but mistakes speak volumes

Be yourself for I am not a writer

But you are here sharing with me

Reclaim your voice and empower yourself

The Fight Goes On

As the title suggests, even when I am not visible I am still fighting. Stress causes illness, avoid stress ! And I think your having a laugh. Seriously though, if it is not one it is the other. 

 

Oh, for a holiday on a cozy beach where the sun shines until it is time to sleep and yes you are all invited too!

 

I have been quite too long and it is time for this mum to let rip and sort what is not being done, seems I spend my life these days pushing everyone else into action without the benefits of being paid.

 

Letting David Cameron our PM know we feel your cuts and wondering if the bankers are enjoying the high life as usual mmmmmmmmm.

 

Hugs to you all x

Sorry

Sorry its been a while since I have blogged mainly due to family stuff, so limited to what I can say but I have missed you all, sometimes you can be so distracted with your blog that it can become an escape from reality. It is something I must be more aware of. For me it is hard to step out from myself and my own mind. Thoughts and memories are not easily to escape from unless I plunge myself into something else and get completely involved in it but then I neglect other things needing my attention. My children must always be first.

Wednesday's Quote For My Friends!

 In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out.  It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being.  We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit.  ~Albert Schweitzer

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Mental Murder

One of those nights where I want to sleep but I cannot. I remember a story recently in the news, the story of Milly Dowler who went missing 9 years ago and died at the hands of Levi Bellfield. What keeps going round in my head is her parents remarks after the trail. Giving evidence as witnesses was too high a price to pay! I will come back to this case later.

 A question that I would like answered is why nobody in child abuse cases considers the mental murder of a child. The trauma to a child with this crime is never really mentioned or when it is, never in detail or given much thought or recognition. It is merely directed away from our attention the same way you would stop a child viewing violence on the television. We are not children so why is this not given its precedence.

A child is not an adult mentally or physically and where the body heals the mind never does. To commit such a crime to a child will mean that child as it existed no longer exists. The child's childhood ceases. It is a crime that goes without punishment or proper consideration because again I say we cannot admit that some of our kind can commit such a premeditated act of inhumanity. It is never truly examined by us or given any sense of explanation because it is not carried on the outside of the body but on the inside, unseen and unheard much like the crime itself.

Coming back to the Milly Dowler Case, there is far too much redirection in court cases where upon the victim is the one who is somewhat at fault and has in someway encouraged the crime itself. In the case of Milly Dowler the defence apparently placed the blame onto her parents by attacking their reputations.This form of defence is acceptable in our justice system. A family who had their much loved daughter abducted, abused and murdered. Persuaded as witnesses went into the trail of their daughter's abuser and murderer and whilst on the stand had the blame somehow directed onto them in an unbelievable attempt to excuse this mans crime. Has the world gone mad!!!!! 

Seemingly not according to the Law. It is OK to do this to enable a fair trail for the Child Abusing Murderer! Fact is the truth is all too ugly for us so we have to find an excuse for it somewhere and as the Dowler family were on the stand and not poor Milly ( who would of been blamed) it was her parents who were left totally humiliated and distraught. The saddest thing of all is the Dowler family have said that if they knew how they were going to be treated they would never of taken the stand so what message has the Justice System sent out to other victims! 

As a human being and with common sense my heart goes out to the Dowler family and their lovely Milly.

For me personally I fear for my children.

Everybody Hurts

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Just been visiting one of the many blogs I visit. A blog I love to visit because of my admiration for this person and all she has endured and continues to battle with. As I left her a message and was about to leave I glance over her blog in case I had missed something and low and behold there it was. One of those mini gadgets that if you press play it plays a song the blogger has put on her blog. Only it wasn't the gadget itself but the song she had chosen.

Today I had had a normal day, haven't really had one of those for ages. A day when my brain was at peace within itself, calm almost asleep. It enabled me to catch up on all the jobs that I had been neglecting and I hardly had one flashback or thought about the reality of our lives. Yes a normal day, I am not sure how it happened or if I will have another but I have felt a release today and felt good at what I have been able to accomplish in one day. I have even made plans to fix the floor in the bathroom and redecorate it too, something I have had absolutely no motivation or even a thought for over these last months.

So there I was I had just sat down after running around catching up on all my chores. Taking up my position for the night.  Feet up, coffee in hand and laptop on lap. A lot of the time I try not to listen to music because of the emotional effect it has on my moods but coming face to face with this song I knew I was going to listen to it and yes I knew it would take me back to a place I am afraid to go back to, because of the pain and utter despair I was feeling, felt. The song R.E.M. Everybody Hurts and if you have been where I was you will know what this song is about and if you do in the words of R.E.M. Hold On !!!

Raining Troubles Away

Rain bursts from 

The summer time sky

Caught unaware we are

Sent into hysterical laughter

Like devilish kids up to

Silly, reckless nonsense

The noise of thunder

Cannot scare us

But invites a daily doze of

Welcomed excitement

Into our lives

Your blissful childish squeals 

Chase off our troubles
Sending them

Mixing and swirling with

Newly turned garden soil
And leaves cast from the tree washing together as they sweep Down a path 

Forced by the rain
 
 Hitting the kerb oversized raindrops

Bounce and splatter into

The gutter where they

Meet a timely end

  Down the greedy gurgling drain