My Child Speaks
and the dark angel gave the white angel a feather from his wing, the only thing to destroy him, could she use it............
Friday, 10 June 2011
CRY !
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I was looking at my comments today, I was left a message from a survivor saying how she wished she had a mother like me. It was such a lovely comment and it helped me to cry ( something I find hard to do ) even if it was just a little, because all I want to do is be able to cry, cry, cry and cry. Why would such a lovely comment make anyone cry. I cry because how can I be all that I want to be to my children when they were being abused right under my nose.
Thursday, 9 June 2011
OUT OF MY DEPTH
I am going no where very fast. Sometimes I think we are pushing forward and then I realise we are back where we started. Yesterday I took one of my children to Family Therapy, yes we had been before but there has been a revamp of the center and our previous therapist has retired. So we were met by two new therapists. Of course everyone does things differently and though they seem very keen I still feel like we are further back than what we were in the first place.
They wanted to know what we wanted from them, it threw me a little because sometimes I just feel like I am the one teaching everyone else what to do, what to look for, what we need and how to help. Do they really have the experience and knowledge to actually help ease the pain of my child.
I feel that they are just not "getting it". I am a mother, my children disclosed abuse to me, I am out of my depth here, why are you asking me what to do ? Why is there no one available who can help my child to cope and help make sense of what has happened ? When you disclose and ask for help there should be someone there to help.
Only last year I asked about EMDR. Have to check with the courts incase we contaminate evidence. Asked again yesterday and they say same thing again, really they should know this. I was able to tell them the answer because I picked the phone up and asked the court myself it was not hard, really!
What it comes down to is I have lost faith all over again and trying to hide it from my child in the hope that its just my stupid anxieties and that the next meeting will hold some promise of competence and help.
What I would give to be on top of a mountain in the middle of nowhere and be able to scream out my frustration.
They wanted to know what we wanted from them, it threw me a little because sometimes I just feel like I am the one teaching everyone else what to do, what to look for, what we need and how to help. Do they really have the experience and knowledge to actually help ease the pain of my child.
I feel that they are just not "getting it". I am a mother, my children disclosed abuse to me, I am out of my depth here, why are you asking me what to do ? Why is there no one available who can help my child to cope and help make sense of what has happened ? When you disclose and ask for help there should be someone there to help.
Only last year I asked about EMDR. Have to check with the courts incase we contaminate evidence. Asked again yesterday and they say same thing again, really they should know this. I was able to tell them the answer because I picked the phone up and asked the court myself it was not hard, really!
What it comes down to is I have lost faith all over again and trying to hide it from my child in the hope that its just my stupid anxieties and that the next meeting will hold some promise of competence and help.
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What I would give to be on top of a mountain in the middle of nowhere and be able to scream out my frustration.
Tuesday, 7 June 2011
Saturday, 4 June 2011
Dead Rainbows
Rainbow girl in all her glory
Head high lost in a dizzy sky
Donating bags of precious trust
Oblivious careless child
Skirting the dust of deceit
Curiosity lead her astray
Straight to the Storm Spreader
Trapped little bird
Caged within his grip
Black clouds eclipsed the day
Spears of light spat and
Scorched at her skin
As she ran bleeding
Footprints on the grass
Cursed and grounded now
Eyes torn open wide to see
Devastation grew from her seed
To be planted forever in her path
Dead rainbows have no colour
Thursday, 2 June 2011
The Power In Our Hands
The power of the Internet, in today's world we have found ourselves one of the biggest voices that will ever be heard. Heard not by a few but by millions, society can no longer silence the injustices of man. We have found a way to be heard, to speak out. The internet has taken over from where society has failed, giving an outlet for those suffering but no longer in silence. We have the ability to communicate with people all over the world. The crimes against children in all its forms of abuse will not be accepted or covered up and hidden anymore. People cannot turn the other way because it will not be possible to silence millions demanding change, demanding Justice.
Wednesday, 1 June 2011
POLL RESULTS 01/06/2011
For my own benefit I ran a Poll because I wanted to know what kind of effect the justice system has on victims of child abuse coming forward to report it to the Authorities in the year 2011. It was ran over 60 days. A big thank you to all of you who took part. The results do speak for themselves.
Question : If You Were A Victtim Of Child Abuse Did You Report It To The Authorities ?
1. Yes I Reported It 15%
2. Yes But Did Not Report It 69%
3. Yes But No Further Action
Was Taken 15%
4. Yes But I Dropped The
Charges 0%
Question : If You Were A Victtim Of Child Abuse Did You Report It To The Authorities ?
1. Yes I Reported It 15%
2. Yes But Did Not Report It 69%
3. Yes But No Further Action
Was Taken 15%
4. Yes But I Dropped The
Charges 0%
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